blur to jonathan

here I am a single mom, struggling to make ends meet and being increadibly underestimated by everyone around me... and I LOVE IT.
I LOOOOVE my life right now because es un preambulo de las grandes cosas que van a suceder en mi vida en los proximos meses/anios...

I love and enjoy every single minute of my life right now. I receive so much pleasure from teh work that I am doing because i know it is the path that is goign to take me to where I wan to be soon. I KNOW I AM GOING TO MAKE IT. it's been years and years of not knowing what I wan to do with myself. of not knowing what I could do, what I was good at... and now it is CLEAR to me. what I want, what I am good at.
this is a joyous time in my life.

I know I am working hard and I know it does not seem to everyone that the work that I am doing is worth what I am getting in return. but that does not matter. what matters is what I KNOW. what matters is that it makes perfect sense in my head. and what mattes is that God is opening the doors I need, and giving me the obstacles I need, because they make me stronger and they help me overcome and learn for the future. I thank God for every minute, every problem, every breathing moment of my life.

AND IT IS NOT becuase I will profit my client well over a million dollars in just ONE sale in 2009, it is not all aobut teh money. it is about satisfaction that it gives me to know I am taking my capacity to it's full extent. and knowing that my son will be proud of me one day... that just makes my night.